• I drew an animal medicine card to ask how to move forward. I got the Blue Heron. It’s about Self-Reflection, about examining yourself with a cold eye to see what you wish to improve and how you want to change.

• I’ve been asking myself some big questions: What is your message? What are you really trying to say? Why do you want to say anything at all?

• I’ve always been better at questions than answers.

• Yesterday I learnt the German word Weltschmerz. It translates to a feeling of melancholy and world-weariness. I feel it mostly in my right shoulder and in the left side of my chest. A little bit in my throat.

• I registered to vote in the US today. When I tried a few months ago I didn’t have the right paperwork so I used that as an excuse not to bother because I also believe the system is corrupt so fuck it. Fuck it is never really the best attitude. I can do better than that. We all can.

• Last night I left my dishes in the sink because after watching the debate I had to take a walk. I want to be educated and informed. I also just want to be an animal howling at the moon.

• “Heron asks… Are you willing to dive into the watery depths of your own feelings and discover the role of your spiritual essence?”

• Sometimes I leave my dirty dishes it the sink for days, it’s one of the greatest joys of living alone. For breakfast I ate almond butter from the jar with my fingers while I read an article about what it takes to live a truly creative life.